I'm sick of all my friends talking to me about their problems... sometimes I feel like they only call me when they are having a bad day. Normally, I'm a very sympathetic person, and a really good listener. But ever since this deployment started, I can't seem to find a caring bone in my body!! If I was approached with a very serious issue, that would be different. But all these minor little worries.... I just can't seem to care!!!
So let me be honest. I'm really really bad at telling people my feelings. Even my husband has to drag stuff out of me.
I just really wish people could see through me. I wish people knew when I was sad, or struggling and ask me what's going on and give me a hug. Because I don't like to approach people and tell them.... to me it is a sign of weakness. I don't want people to think I'm weak, or can't handle this. Some days it's just really hard.
Is it wrong that I don't care about other people's problems, if they aren't willing to even ask about mine?
I feel so heartless.
But most of all I just feel irritated!!!
For once, I wish someone would just listen to MY problem.
Wow, I sound like the biggest whiner of all time!! Just needed to vent...
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