Communication is great these days. I am blessed that I get to talk to my husband almost every day. It gives me something to look forward to and it lets me know that Sean is okay.
However, sometimes communication works against me. Obviously, I EXPECT Sean to call everyday.
But sometimes he doesn't get the chance to... like today. This might not seem like a big deal, but it is. Not because I didn't get to talk to him (which sucks a LOT), but because I start to worry about him.
from a normal wife perspective... I know he's okay, because he has a safe job over there. He never has to leave the base, thank God.
but from the perspecitive of a military wife... I worry. All the bad thoughts of WHY he didn't call stir around in my head. I have to consciously force myself to believe that he is safe. I have to consciously think of logical reasons why he didn't call... he had to work late, he chose to go to the gym instead, the phones were down....
But still those worrisome thoughts linger....
It's just something that most women don't have to think about. Most women don't have to go a day without talking to their husband, let alone worry about if he is alive.
On days like today, I pray extra.
But on days like today, I find it hard to focus on anything. I lack motivation. And I am constantly checking my phone or the internet to see if he's online. I become totally preoccupied with trying to figure out why he didn't call.
For those of you who aren't military wives, I challenge you to put yourself into the shoes of a military wife. Try to imagine what separation would be like. Try to imagine what worrying would be like. It might make you appreciate us military wives a little more.
For those of you who are... you're not alone. We all share the same concerns, the same heartaches.... reach out to a fellow military wife. It's good to have someone to talk to.
No comments:
Post a Comment